Friday, August 23, 2013

So tired...

I stepped on the scale today. After weeks of no activity and eating whatever I wanted, I've gained 17 pounds. 
I can't even begin to share the self-loathing I feel at this very moment. Tears are imminent. Defeated doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. All the while there is the inner voice in a snide tone saying "You knew better. You only have yourself to blame. What were you thinking eating all that crap?".
Here I am at the freaking starting line again. 17 pounds heavier. Defeated and broken. Tired. So very tired of being fat. 
~jen

1 comment:

  1. I feel you on all of these posts! I'm so sick of being fat, but tired of trying. I do great for a week, then crap for a week. It's so hard! Keep trying!

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