I love summer. Blue skies. Warm temperatures. Sunshine. Tanned skin. Driving around town with the car windows down. Radio turned up loud. Sitting pool side.
But there's a heightened feeling of insecurity. Bathing suits. Shorts. Sleeveless tops. All the things that I want to avoid.
I can't remember the last time I actually got in a pool.
When I go to the pool, I'm covered from head to toe (and not to protect my skin from sun damage). I don't want anyone to see my flabby dimpled bits. I sit poolside and stare enviously at those brave enough to bare it all- often times too much "all". I have no desire to bare it "all" (even if I had the perfect body to!). I just want to be comfortable in my own skin. To jump into that pool fearlessly and secure of who I am. Flabby, dimpled bits and all.
~jen
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